It's really hard being in love with such an emotional trainwreck, because it then makes yourself an emotional trainwreck and you start thinking that YOU'RE the problem when it's really them. They blame you for this, that and the other thing, when it's them just not taking responsibility for themselves or their mistakes.

Why do I love such an emotionally abusive bastard. Who calls me a whore and a twit? Why do I love this guy. And why was I able to spend a day ignoring him .... now here I am IMing him.

he treats me so fucking bad that i would rather be physically beaten than have my heart repeatedly broken the way he does mine.